"Take a breath and take your time."
I'm not a very patient person. I get frustrated when things don't go as quickly as I want them to, or in the right direction right away. So many things have come easily in my life that persistence is one of the traits I still very much lack. I don't seem to have the innate ability to slow down and be okay with quiet and simple changes. In times like this, what I need most is the faith to be patient. It's not that this is too heavy, it's that I have to carry it for too long.
Tonight I fought quiet and calm for hours. I stayed on campus as long as possible, and when I was finally able to drag myself home I quickly jumped into several hours of cleaning. If I hadn't promised to be safer, tonight would be an ideal night for a run.
I am pretty sure patience is a myth. And the people we think of as patience are just those who have discovered that it is a myth and are keeping it a secret from the rest of us.
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