I'd like to say something.
This isn't about my daily life, except that it is. It's about the paradigm in which I live, and the life I am trying to build.
For the past 4 years, I have been on a constant search to define truth for myself. To know, for myself, where the truth really lies. To be able to see things as they really are.
This sounds simple- but it's not.
Truth is something that comes in shades. Or at least it seems to. In fact, truth is straightforward- it's our understanding of truth that comes in layers, making the truth feel like a spectrum of gray. In reality, it's our journey from black to white that blurs the colors.
This isn't necessarily bad- as humans we are always learning. But we have to remember that. Even when we learn something new, it is essential that we recognize that our knowledge only represents a step in the right direction- not the whole picture.
There are many things that we understand certain aspects of, while tending to neglect the whole. Social and political issues represent the most poignant examples. Everyone understands some piece correctly- but no one has the whole truth. Some are closer than others. Some seek for truth in the bigger picture, placing their trust in a higher power while sorting through the details.
I believe that this is true wisdom: A constant search for greater truth that is grounded in the faith of a paradigm in which one already believes.
Having spent a great deal of time running frantically from one side to the other, unsure who to believe and ever-worried that new information would rip the fragile foundation from beneath my feet, I know the dangers of fanatical knowledge-seeking. Knowledge is not something to be consumed voraciously. It is something to be pursued with diligence and passion, tempered and grounded in the constancy of certain Truth.