My pet peeve is when stores put out Christmas decorations before Thanksgiving. It is the one holiday we have where we get to celebrate all that we are grateful for in our lives, and it is so often overshadowed by consumerism.
Tonight, I am overwhelmed by all that I have to be grateful for.
I had a most productive day, and was able to get through 11 hours of school with a clear mind and fervent determination. Friends found their way into my life this evening in random bits and pieces, but just enough to keep me on track and remembering to focus on others. My amazing roommate and her editing skills helped me with a paper I've been struggling with, and somehow managed to give me exactly the direction I needed. A beautiful night walk to the store to pick up some limes was just right tonight to feel cared about without being a distraction. My daddy and step-mom are coming into town this weekend. And it's General Conference!
my life is beautiful, busy, and perfect. I am so blessed.
Monday, September 26, 2011
be patient
If it's a broken heart then face it...
hold your own
know your name
and go your own way.
Everything will be Fine.
Keep on keeping on.
Saturday, September 24, 2011
loved.
Look at me so you can see how beautiful you are.
I am so grateful for the times I have felt cared for and the wonderful people in my life who remind me that I am loved.
Friday, September 23, 2011
Actress
I love theater. I'm so grateful for it, and for the time in my life that it gave me a healthy outlet to play and laugh and pretend. The blissful memories, the friends I made, and the skills I learned. Mostly, I love theater for the escape it has been in my life.
And yet, now it's holding me back. Just when I think I'm being transparent about the way I feel, I learn that only those who are the very closest to me can even tell that something's amiss. Even in my attempts to let others in, through what seems like desperate pleas for caring, I come across as fine. Grumpy, tired, and hungry, sure. But ultimately fine.
Why do I act? More to the point, why am I so good at it that others can't even tell what I'm really feeling? And how can I change? Life is full of paradoxes, and us trying to making opposing concepts fit together in seemingly impossible ways. I'm grateful for challenges and opportunities to learn and grow.
...and sometimes, I get frustrated. I hate having to ask for hugs or help. Wouldn't it just be so much easier if people could tell what I needed?
And yet, now it's holding me back. Just when I think I'm being transparent about the way I feel, I learn that only those who are the very closest to me can even tell that something's amiss. Even in my attempts to let others in, through what seems like desperate pleas for caring, I come across as fine. Grumpy, tired, and hungry, sure. But ultimately fine.
Why do I act? More to the point, why am I so good at it that others can't even tell what I'm really feeling? And how can I change? Life is full of paradoxes, and us trying to making opposing concepts fit together in seemingly impossible ways. I'm grateful for challenges and opportunities to learn and grow.
...and sometimes, I get frustrated. I hate having to ask for hugs or help. Wouldn't it just be so much easier if people could tell what I needed?
Wednesday, September 14, 2011
Halfway there!
In the past week, I have learned:
1) Heavenly Father answers prayers. Usually he answers them through other people, and often confirmation of the answer requires us to take a few steps into the dark. But He always answers. And there is power in numbers. Sometimes, when a lot of people are praying for the same thing, Father cuts out all the stops and really shows us that He is pulling for us.
2) Moods happen. Some days are good, some days not so much. There are days where the only thing we truly have control over is how we react. There is great power in learning to see the best in people and situations, and in realizing that often people's actions are very much a product of a day much worse than ours. Also, sometimes it's okay to feel down. Feel it, relish in it, and get a milkshake. Go to bed early, and plan how you'll make tomorrow better.
3) Life is about climbing mountains. This has been especially evident for me in work lately. I'm always pumped after a work meeting, and then I spend the next week dreading the ambiguous things I have to do. School can be like this too. Most of the time, life is about the hard work of climbing. It's important to take time to see the beautiful things on the way up, and keep the goal of the top in mind.
Current Favorite Talk: Finding Joy in the Journey, by President Thomas S. Monson
Current Frustrations: computer and battery malfunctions, nightmares, being sore, and how much the Diamondbacks keep winning.
Current Blessings: a peaceful apartment, getting ahead on a group project, chocolate chip cookies and a brownie, supportive friends, book refunds, finally getting office installed, and an understanding boss.
Life is Good. Chin up, and push forward to the weekend!
1) Heavenly Father answers prayers. Usually he answers them through other people, and often confirmation of the answer requires us to take a few steps into the dark. But He always answers. And there is power in numbers. Sometimes, when a lot of people are praying for the same thing, Father cuts out all the stops and really shows us that He is pulling for us.
2) Moods happen. Some days are good, some days not so much. There are days where the only thing we truly have control over is how we react. There is great power in learning to see the best in people and situations, and in realizing that often people's actions are very much a product of a day much worse than ours. Also, sometimes it's okay to feel down. Feel it, relish in it, and get a milkshake. Go to bed early, and plan how you'll make tomorrow better.
3) Life is about climbing mountains. This has been especially evident for me in work lately. I'm always pumped after a work meeting, and then I spend the next week dreading the ambiguous things I have to do. School can be like this too. Most of the time, life is about the hard work of climbing. It's important to take time to see the beautiful things on the way up, and keep the goal of the top in mind.
Current Favorite Talk: Finding Joy in the Journey, by President Thomas S. Monson
Current Frustrations: computer and battery malfunctions, nightmares, being sore, and how much the Diamondbacks keep winning.
Current Blessings: a peaceful apartment, getting ahead on a group project, chocolate chip cookies and a brownie, supportive friends, book refunds, finally getting office installed, and an understanding boss.
Life is Good. Chin up, and push forward to the weekend!
Sunday, September 11, 2011
Wednesday, September 7, 2011
This I Know
In doing our best and trying our hardest, things will always work out the way Father intends them, with our happiness at heart. Challenges and struggles are opportunities to learn and grow, and there are ways to find peace amid confusion. No matter what life throws at us, it is manageable with faith, good friends, and a firm foundation. And finally, there is no substitute for the feeling of peace in the home.
There is peace, hope, and joy in the plan. What a blessed life we lead.
I've been a short spastic blogger of late. I love the opportunity to simply be as I am.
There is peace, hope, and joy in the plan. What a blessed life we lead.
I've been a short spastic blogger of late. I love the opportunity to simply be as I am.
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