Saturday was one of the most wonderful days I've had in a long time. I woke up from a dream that brought some closure, got some things done for work and school, bonded with my roommates, watched a movie with my boyfriend and another couple (yay for socializing!), made an awesome snowman named Clyde (with lots of help), gallivanted in the snow and made snow angels, and finished off the evening with lost, tea, cuddling, and some more roommate bonding.
Today had wonderful parts as well- a good haircut, tromping through snow, realizing how great it is that I have the means to buy the clothing I need (if not the decision-making power), and quiet time with my man.
The gratitude I feel today is for the whole circle of feelings- ups and downs and "meh" points in-between. For the understanding I have that even when my headaches don't go away, every night is plagued with nightmares, and I'm just plain exhausted...life is still worth living. Sometimes it can be one look, one kiss, or just the quiet determination I feel at the end of the day. But it's there. And it's real.
I'm grateful for a knowledge that, even while I'm still figuring it out, I have a place in this world. One that only I can fill perfectly, and only I will truly appreciate. And I'm grateful that that's enough.
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